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Fafafizafah new updates.. short one will do. Oct 14, 2009 11:49 PM Helloooooooooooooo !! Ehhh sooryyy tk update.. OKay why not we just forget about my last previous post , shall we ? GREAT ! Exams are done. Updating my first blog is done. Now YOU , FABSUGAR ! hahahahah . Facebook not yet. hmmm.. I love this guy. His name is as the same as my bro. Okay./ hahahaa.. I love Aisya MORE ! cant forget about her ! B nak kiss !!!!! hahah.. U , u !! Meet up soon and kluar same2 lagii okay ! Miss u alot darling.. Okay now........hmmmmm i dont know what to say .?? Hmmm. I miss ella. I am a Naughty , Talkative girl. Yeah ! Thats me,. Im becoming more naughty! LOL ! Im cute i know right...hahaha To Adam and Faz or Akit or Baby that is reading my Fabsugar now..or later or tomorrow. or whatever. ! I love korg okay ! Please take a note.. =P Errrmmmm.... I dont have the feelings for dance anymore. Like seriously ahhh.. SUMPAH TKDE. and whats the point of me coming to prac when they concentrated on the people who are going to genting. ME ? waste time there ! wth! might as well i spend my time with my family. Whatever la ! k la byee ! Oh ya... Im leaving Singapore soon. To some other countries. Sick and tired here. BYEEEEEEEEE!!!! toodles.
Fafafizafah About friendships lifes. Sep 15, 2009 5:42 AM Hello people. Sorry for lack updates.  As u know im more to my first blog than this as this Fabsugar is only for my private one. No one knows other than Bby. Firstly i miss bby. Wanna meet Bby like , NOW ! hahah..   K then wanna talk about friendships lifes. I can see through my eyes that it seems that NO one , like all my friends , can be my suitable Bestfriends. Friends or good friends are fine and alright. But none can be my bestfriend. Gosh ! I cant take it... I mean , Akit , eLLa, yes my Best of ever friends. But in fact , they are graduating soon. So yup.. I cant only depend or rely on them to be always be there for me. Cause they cant be there for me for now or like everytime. They are having their BIG papers. I understand that. But hey , I must find a bestfriend now. To be there for me everytime I need them.. All my friends are like "masalah kehidupan" in malay.. HMMMPH ! So its like really hard for me. And thus , i got too pissed and irritated by both Ira and Lina. Idk why... I hate them. Oh yes i might be hating people here and there randomly but this is really true . Im stating the fact here. Im not gonna lie anymore. Yes , i somehow hate Ira and Lina. But im not being two-faced person unlike others or some of my friends. I hate that but why must I stupidly have done that right ? So no. Not that type of person. Im not what you think. And seriously I've no idea. I want to have new friends. And I mean True Real New Friends. Not fake one. For Ira , i love her . But I hate her attitude. Its like she's very "ngada2" in malay , dont know how to say that. And yes really true. Even like just now in POA lessons. She and her boyfriend . Fcuk! I was so damn fed up and pissed ! Gosh ! I cant even concentrate la on POA class. So damn pissed.. Gosh ! Then want to cry .......For what reason , idk. Dont wanna know either. Then i think they fought or something. Gosh i cant take it la they all. Thenn keep on keeping quiet , her face was as if she wants a sympathy from others. I mean us , girls.. Then Lina.. Gosh ! idk la how to elaborate or either talk about it. She's just not suitable enough for me  to be my bestfriend ..  Cant take it. I also felt very irritated by her. In add , i sat beside her everyday some more. Oh ma ! It makes me feel more and more hatred towards her. And I just throw my tantrums just now in Geog and Maths lessons towards her. But eventually , she didnt realized it . I was like...... Oh gosh ! I want someone to change his/her place with her. or maybe girlfys. And i think my life is not enough of friends. I had enough of everything.. And what was I thinking now ? What am i trying to say towards my friends ? what ??? Yes but im stating the fact that I HAVE NO ENOUGH FRIENDS ! or neither BESTFRIENDS. or either SOMEONE TO RELY ON ! I need BABY so muchh. Baby i want u . I want u to be mine. I cant wait any longer. But i Loved and Missed you so much. Maybe , Baby knows what I want and what is going on in my life.. Baby , i feel alone here without u around... But i still want friends too. Friends nowadays are like.....Wth ! They wanna use me. Use me for nothing ! Just nothing. Lack of friends.. I want Special friends. Lina , Ira , please or other people stop saying that im ur bestfriends or good friend or anything. Because once a Bestfriend , always a Bestfriend. Remember ? And Bestfriends will helped out each other and be there when they need you or u need them. Right ? Thus , help u out or any other things. But now , NO MORE ! No more calling bestfriends. Shaaark ! Please la.. I dont wanna being used. Im not a doll , im not a wrapper or plastics or waste material for u to use and then being thrown just like that away. I've being hurt. Hurt that makes me hate all of u friends. And hurt that makes me think that i fail in everything. And hurt that makes me wanna migrate. And hurt makes me think that i might be changing school and hurt also may say that i wanna STOP DANCING ! Hurts may also makes me Fall SICK.. Whats with that ? Whats wrong ?? Its not my fault. But friends. They think More on their Boyfriends and spending more times with each other together. And forget about Bestfriends behind. Hence , they also think more on their ownself , dance, the one they admired alot , got to be chosen with professionals , rich , rather than their own Bestfriends. Where one of her Bestfriends here , feel disappointed , angry. All this while that she have helped her very good Bestfriends on many things since sec 1 and maybe another in sec 2 , left her and just used her as if she's an outsider or just like a disposable things. Gosh and i cant take it. Oh sweets , ur words are just so sweet that I've throwed it away from my heart and mind and from my ears. "Shed in tears". I just couldnt believe why am i being like this. And my dearest 30T or "my friends outside" are just " FRIENDS COME AND GO". How sad am i. I dont think they are thinking of me all this while , i dont think they will organized things that i may be in . Not tryna ask them to let me in. What i mean was , they will ask me for out and things like that. Now , i dont think so . Because why ? I was the one who wants to go out on Hari Raya and just to meet them. I was the one who plans this. Why not them ? If they would plan this , did they inform me ? No. eLLa  ? No either.. Im just so sad. And I miss VogueLicious. They are just my Sweet Sweet Dearest Honey Bunny ! But , hmm... Not sure....  I  just missed them. Especially Babyy. I understand that u're having ur BIG papers too. Im cool about that. But hey , i feel like crying all out infront of my mom , saying that i want to change school , to a girls's school or even to MIGRATE to my aunt's country, which is in London.Maybe my family and I would be going there next year June holidays or end of year.. I want to go there so much. Or maybe study over there. I want to be successful in life. But how could I ? With all this kind of problems here...? It always been stucked in my head and its really hard for me to solve or even to forget about it. Its really hard for me to study and absorbed things that i've studied all this while. Its like my memory are full of hurt feelings.  I just dont wanna be alone. But if i have to , then i would just dont mind.. But afterall , i still love my friends. Its just that im disappointed. Really.. I dont mind losing of friends. I can be myself without friends. I just dont want Baby to leave or forget me like my friends do. Or would maybe Bestfriends ?? hmmm... Fake Fake ! Akit and eLLa. I just love both of u. Thanks for being there for me. Hearing or listening of my tears. Helped me alot in everything . Made me happy whenever im feeling down. I just dont know how to pay back all the helps that i've asked alot from both of u. And i feel sick of it..  I believe even more on both of u. Everything that i've told , like my secrets and all , it means that I believe in both of u alot. Also that im being like this.So what if i am Lesbian ? Did i harm other people ?? NO ! Exactly..and hey Thanks for keeping my secrets. I love both of u and also Miss u girls aloooooot ! Oh ya , to My dearest Mira , i love her alot actually. Wanted to tell her what i heard from others about her. But i think i should not. It may be hurting ur feelings. Whatever it is , im telling u people that actually she's a good friend to me. And i love her alot. tc of ur health and i'll tc of mine. =) Well , people are all not perfect.. So do me. =) To Bby , I miss you alot too. Wanna meet u asap.   Okay i think thats about all. Shall log out now. Tc and beware of ur friends or bestfriends. For me , they are all just "FRIENDS COME AND GO". I wont stop saying this , unless they prove me wrong that friends are NOT come and go. So bye . Toodles.. Loves , Feeza Emys. =)
Fafafizafah to let everything out Sep 3, 2009 11:48 PM HELL.......OOOO!!!!!! Now , I must let things out. Fine people fine..Since you all wanna know about me so much.. Hmm.. Well i should just let yall read it here aytes. Rather than me telling infront of u guys crying. Letting my eyes hurt all. I feel like crying too though when you guys asked me what had happened to me. Blablaaa...! All the words , im touched.. =) Okay pheeew... Now...Im gonna tell everything out , the truths all.. Its all started with....... Idk. Oh well , actually my mom wants me to quit my cca, which is dance , since last year ? Yeah i remembered it. I was like nearly pick up the phone and call my teacher out of the staff room to let her know that my mom wants me to quit. BUT hence , i put down the phone back. Why ? I love NC..I love my friends. I love my BESTfriends. They all were there, for me.. Whenever im feeling down , they cheered me up. They made me smile widely. I enjoyed dancing with them. Especially with my Bestfriends around.. Im glad to have them around me and also to be there for me. I appreciate it alot.. So ya get back.. The reason that she wants me to quit is that my performance in studies have dropped so badly.. Hence , she didnt ever saw me revising my studies on my own. After or before exams.. All about dance. But its my passion, i love dancing.. But hey , your studies and Health comes first. Thanks sis for ur words that makes me woke up. In addition , Im having a backbone problem. Its a "S" shaped bone when its actually supposed to be just straight.. The doctor have said to me and my parents before that we made an appointment with him that dancing is actually okay and allright. Precisely no doubts. When I kept forcing and get goin on further , I suddenly realized that I have difficulty in dancing that my backbone hurts alot.. That is one of the reason why I did not attend school yesterday.. So basically , it based on my studies and Health. Not gonna blame dance. But have to focus more on my studies. My studies have dropped so badly.. Yaa... Everyone nor me is not satisfied. OR how can u satisfied with ur studies when nearly all your subjects failed..?? So yaa.. Mom have talked to Ms Lee regarding this.. Mom told me to quit but if I would to quit my dance , my cca points were all gone just like that? Which I dont want it to happen too. So i will just stay in here but off for the time being..You all wont see me appear much often in prac then.. And actually, Mom was asked to wrote a letter on behalf of me regarding this stuffs. Furthermore, the teachers in charge will discussed this matter with the principle. And from today onwards till my EOY exams , i will not be dancing for the time being. My backbone have to rest. And im more busy on my studies too though.. Well , hmmm... Besides , mom complaint that I have not been spending my time with families. Hell true enough.. But ...........Im sorry.. I knew it.. so its not fair. Yaa...hmmm.... To Kak Seri , Im sorry too . I cant commit to join with u gals for Dance Explosion with the gals group yea. So so sorry. But ofcourse i wanna join with u gals. Hell! Sape tknk... My dream though. I hope one day I can dance with the dancers that I love and know. Hell !! Ofcourse i want ! Ofcourse i dont wanna lose this opportunity. But , i care for my health. I still wanna stay awake here , at home with families... =) Not end up in hospital. Which im sure u guys wont want it too yea? So well , I've lose 2 of my opportunities which is dancing with kak seri kak zeella all and also going to genting to have dance comp. URGHHH!!!! IT hurts aloooot ! Gosh ! Biggest Opportunity MAN !!!!! OMG !!! I can go crazy !!!Seriously... So..... PeoPle of the World !!!! IM SORRY FOR EVERYTHING THAT I HAVE KEPT FROM ALL OF U ALL THIS WHILE. TO WHOEVER IT IS... IM SAD AND SCARED TO FACE NC . THATS ALL.. NEVERTHELESS, IM STILL HERE STANDING WITH YOU GUYS AND GIRLS.. DONT WORRY MUCH ABOUT ME.. I LOVE YOU ALL. =) SO DO TAKECARE PEOPLES.. LOVES, fAIzAhH..
Fafafizafah Never attend school. Weird. Sep 3, 2009 3:29 AM Hello loves.. I was absent from school just now. Hell yeah. My backbone hurt alooooot!! My goodness!~ Im sure you guys know about it right , but when i woke up in the morning , it becomes worse. Which i dont know why.. Hmmm yes it hurt alot. Its hard for me to bent properly. OUCH! Im sooooo gonna see that doctor again and wanna have a x-ray again. Seriously i cant take it anymore.. And oh , to Lina..Im sorry gal. I will tell u soon okay.. I know im acting weird these days. But nevertheless , i will still remember u my bestfriend. I've read ur ONSUGAR...haha. Yeah , i was touched.. Real touched ..Ily gal.. =)   So thats it...... Tc people!! Byee!
Fafafizafah Today! 1st Sept 09 Sep 1, 2009 8:33 AM Hello World ! Ermm.. As u know that I've just made this website a few minutes ago. Well , just wanna try out and found out more whats interesting in here. So today I had a very bad day. I went out with my lovely ladies and found out my i/c and ezlink was missing from my skirt's pocket. I was shocked and panicked at the same time.. So we went back to the places that we've been and searched for it like 1 hour plus. We asked many people from the shops and also the customer service counter but it was not yet found. Then at last , we gave up. When i went back home , I cried as im scared to tell my mom about it. So yea.. She didnt scold me. Thank God. Im just being too careless. I was not supposed to place it in my pocket. Hmm.. I hope after making a report to the police , they will call us telling that my i/c and ezlink was found. Hopefully..!!! =)

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